♥Whispered secrets♥

2012-02-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

"So what school are you in?"

"Uhm, Dunman High School."

"Wah, smart!"

Happens all the time.

Thing is, I don't think I'm smart. I somehow have to try much harder than others just to score equally well. I've never felt that I was in an elite school. I don't even know how I got into the school back then.

I feel that it isn't fair to determine how intelligent a person is just based on which school he/she attends. Being smart isn't just about scoring well in every test and exam, no?

I envy those in ITE, Poly, because they know what they want to do in life, they have a goal and they are working towards it. I actually envy those taking their o-levels. We may seem well ahead of many others in our batch now but once we enter Senior High, we're at the losing end again. Those taking their o-levels have the chance to study hard, score well and get into JCs of a much higher standard.

What will happen to all of us then? I don't even have an ambition anymore.

This isn't how I wanted my life to turn out.

Why can't I just be an all-rounder, why can't I be perfect?

new beginnings

2012-01-01T13:38:00.002+08:00

SOOOOOOO.....

It's been forever since I posted.

thought it would be good to do a post at the start of the year!

Anyway, what's the new year without new year resolutions ((:

(I have a lot this year)

1) Be on time. Yeahhh I've ALWAYS, ALWAYS, been late this year. No idea why too but it's a really bad habit so I've gotta kick it ):

2) Stop slacking my time away and get distracted so easily. I learnt my lesson this year, results were terrible!!!

3) Be hardcore thrifty. The sad thing was that I spent most of my money on food to keep me awake in class. WHAT A WASTE OF MONEY, NO? Oh but, I did not the surprising thing is, I did not get caught at all bahaha.

4) Sleep earlier and stop sleeping in class asdfghjkl. Yes, got caught a few times this year, and i felt bad cos my teachers were all so nice and patient etc.

Okay, I can't think of anymore. Funny how I thought I had a lot.

On a side note, 2011 was a really draining and exhausting year for me. It's been a year of deaths and a year where we welcomed my newest cousin.

It was a year of change- new class, new roles, new worries.

I guess I got complacent too, and my results plummeted D: Veryyyyyy disappointing.

But now, we survived that year and I should not think back, should not regret. After all, how will we ever learn our lessons and grow up if we have never been through the toughest and most daunting experiences? I will not let 2011 affect me anymore, shall focus on achieving all that I can in 2012.

Cannot believe I'm in Year4 this year.

Once again, Dunman High, BRING IT ON.

All the best in our final lap in Junior High everyone <3

2011-10-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD IT'S EOEOYS!!

ahh this is the best time ever.

sososo anyway!

These 2 days were really fulfilling and well-spent.

went to orchard on both days yikes, and bugis yesterday as well.

did a bit of shopping and bought bracelets from h&m as well as a romper from hula&co (:

but i must say, i spent most of my money on food though :/

here's what i ate in 2 days:

FRIDAY-

1) tried a bit of deborah's gong cha

2) hot tomato steak with pasta plus soup and garlic bread

3) sour sally frozen yoghurt

4) sushi from cold storage

SATURDAY-

1) din tai fung for lunch

2) yami yoghurt

3) each a cup milk tea

4) umi sushi

OMG WHUT I JUST REALISED I ATE THE SAME THINGS ON BOTH DAYS HMM -_-

OH and i went for my ballet lesson for the first time yesterday :D

I was really nervous cos i thought i would be the youngest in the class and it'll be really awkward :/

went into the dance studio and i saw that they were all almost my age!

it felt sooo good to be in the dance studio, just like everything i imagined <3

did so much stretching and stuff for the barre work i think my legs are gonna die.

but it was good cos im so stiff now ):

still have a lot to catch up though! the class had started for 5 months and it was only my FIRST lesson yesterday.

i need to work on my timing and relax my arms a bit~

oh well what to do, been 5 years since i last quit dance ):

thank god the teacher's nice and the people in class are okay i guess?

officially enrolling into the academy next week, luckily there's no need for the assessment class!

so yeah, i conclude that eoeoys are happy days (:

2011-09-29T19:41:00.002+08:00

OH WTH,

Why can't I just forget the past and move on already?

It's almost a year, one whole long year but I find myself looking back at our old photos time and time again. I so badly want to turn back time, but things and situations change.

It's like I'm playing an old song over and over to comfort myself.

I tell myself constantly, I need to get over everything and just let go of whatever I once enjoyed, I now miss.

Life is tough no doubt, and it's so frightening how a few images from before can affect me so much.

I don't like to cry so I hide my feelings and it's only me more reminiscent.

It's never gonna be the same again, Tessa. Just forget about those times, okay?

It's time to mature and start thinking that we cannot have whatever we want in life. Tough up, be brave.

We're all playing hide and seek with time.

Someone needs to invent a time travelling machine, I don't expect it to let me live those memories again- I just want to relieve it and see how my year went past like a film.

Oh God, can you help me please?

I don't ask for much, I just want to be able to accept how things are now and make the best out of it.

2011-09-24T19:29:00.002+08:00

OMG saw this picture on tumblr and i got a total shock.

This would be exactly how I looked like the last time I performed on stage for SYF about 5 years ago.

( I even wrote a prose about it for my lit portfolio)

"I gently brushed aside the black velvet backstage curtains. I stared at my surroundings in blur mist- bright lights glared into my eyes and I made up a couple of heads seating within the lavishly cushioned seats down stage. Judges! I thought. Being myopic, I was pretty blind without my spectacles, but we were never allowed to wear them on stage during performance.

I peered onto the stage. There were a group of vibrantly dolled up girls performing. ........"

^ Yup that was the starting of my prose.

AND ANYWAY.

This may sound kinda absurd and unusual? but,

MY PARENTS ALLOWED ME TO TAKE ADULT BEGINNER BALLET AT THE SINGAPORE BALLET ACADEMY HAHAHA LMAO.

I won't care what others think, I want to just focus on this dream which I had been secretly harbouring since I was 5.

It's so perfect, so intriguing and it expresses one's passion in a dance.

Every sweep, every move.

Sure, it's tough but the product?

A superb performance on stage, wowing the audience in amazement, and not to mention, heart-warming applause. I haven't felt that in a long time and I wanna relieve it, you know?

WHO SAYS ONE CANNOT DREAM? (:

2011-09-11T23:56:00.002+08:00

Why can't things be the same anymore?

I know change is inevitable, but change doesn't mean progress like many claim.

I'm upset, upset that you are everything that I want to be, everything I once was.

Why have I lost my ability to excel and motivation to work hard and do well?

I want to maintain a healthy balance between play and work, I want to learn new things. I don't even have talents. I probably once had, but I've lost it since.

I'm upset that you can do better than me.

And moreover, I'm upset that I'm getting jealous over such trivial matters.

2011-08-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

kay so i thought i'll have more time to complete the stuff on hand after CTs, but NO.

this week equally busy, just kinda glad that i dont have math viva!

so my schedule in school tmr is as follows:

LA lecture at the audi (1st level) -> recess -> Finance lit at LT 4 (5th level) -> PC at the hall (2nd level) -> Chem practical test at chem lab (1st level) -> lunch -> Bio practical test in class (4th level) -> Math (most likely getting back papers?) -> CME (WAH SLACK FOR A WHILE) -> interclass at the fieldddddddd.

ARGH WHAT A BUSY AND HIONG DAY AHEAD.

and it is definitely not helping that i'm feeling so sick now, no mood to even prepare for my prac tests tmr ):

2011-08-14T17:05:00.002+08:00

i hate cts omg.

i cant seem to find my motivation to do any work! if this goes on, my EOYs grades will be soooo screwed ):

and everyone's being so hardworking this time!

hahah typical dunman high culture.

ahwellz. im looking forward to the end of cts though (:

going for lit seminar on 2oaug, then out for dinner + shopping with the P7ers ♥

5 more papers!! i can do this!

2011-07-31T15:27:00.002+08:00

55th anniversary campfire's over!

i guess this means the end of all the various celebrations we've been working and stressing over.

went for lunch with brah, zephania and bird before we kinda rushed to school.

and then we had our very last rehearsal before the actual campfire started!

walked through the gateway, it was so cooooooooool.

looks kinda like a huge ship and it was fun to cross it (:

and it was so cute to see the lil kids running around the campfire wearing scarves almost reaching the ground (oops.)

the gateway was like some playground to them, and they got a chance to throw the firewood into the bonfire omg.

overall it was pretty fun and im glad we didnt screw up our performance (or did we?)

saw pek after the campfire!

apparently their car broke down so she only reached sch at 930 and the campfire kinda ended alr :/

yeppppp anyway back to macbeth and lit.

2011-07-23T21:50:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i dont know how to react to certain situations.

i hate crying, i actually get quite embarrassed and shy when i do so.

i mean, everyone stares and then again, there's this strange feeling that overwhelms me and i dont know how to react to it too.

so i do what im best at.

i bottle up everything and hide.

i dont wanna be hard-hearted, it's just that i can't help it most of the time.

and i've gotten so accustomed to hiding my feelings and pretending that im okay, i forget how it feels like to feel sad.

like im void of all affection.

hide, hide, hide.

there's this lump that wells up in my throat and it goes away after a while.

it has happened so many times, im so used to not crying at all.

when i was younger, i cried about the littlest failures and setbacks.

then i decided i had to be tougher.

maybe that change was too abrupt that i cant ever go back to my old self again. ):

2011-07-20T20:17:00.002+08:00

oh heck, i wanna return to year2 so so badly. i dont even know why.

was randomly looking through my photos from last year on my computer and it brought back tons of memories.

we should not live in the past right.

move, walk on, dont look back. the past belongs in the past, it'll simply remain as memories, stuffed at the back of our minds.

let go, let go, fly free.

saw through the chains holding you back,

cut away the roots stopping you,

barge through the fence restricting you.

but sometimes, i just want to continue hanging on.

2011-07-17T18:27:00.002+08:00

55th anni was quite an eye-opening experience.

AND IT DIDNT RAIN <3, thank god for the nice weather yesterday!

sigh there's a lot of things going on in my mind now but i cant seem to put them in words.

take a deep breath.

okay. where shall i start?

i guess it started out with the last minute preparations and deco.

could feel the excitement building up and it felt like orientation, but on a much smaller scale.

the sense of wanting this mini exhibition to work out was pulsing throughout! and the whole time, we just didnt want it to rain lol.

it was quite epic and funny, really, polishing trophies and flipping through albums from long ago.

then we waited. and waited. and waited some more.

we were getting quite dejected that no one came ._.

finally, the crowd started pouring in and i think we were lucky to have met ex guides and scouts, see them reminisce and recall their lives back then. (they were from 24th and 28th batch, no kidding.)

i thought it's really cool that they found their own photos in those old albums!

especially the black and white ones.

what's more, they came back in groups, both guides and scouts.

i wanna return one day, many many years later, and feel that sense of nostalgia again.

the feeling of bringing a smile to their faces was what can i say, satisfying?

it's like doing someone a big favour, and you get this indescribable happiness dwelling in you.

saw sm goh from far far away and tsepuay&i were freaking out haha.t

didnt get to see the opening ceremony though but i guess we can always return when the school celebrates the 60th anniversary or smt lol.

kkk whatever needa do bio summative, study chengyu and polynomials.

2011-07-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

55th anniversary tomorrow.

yes, at this point of time, im probably feeling more nervous than the principal.

i hope everything works out though :/

the effort we put in, the times we spent discussing, really.

please please, no rain.

i've been really stressed up abt this whole event, and i bet the others are too.

as much as i've wanted the actual day to arrive, i know i'll miss the practice sessions as much too.

GL moments, no doubt, and points where we feel like giving up.

points where we got irritated.

ohwell, shall see how it goes tomorrow. -crosses fingers-

2011-07-06T20:43:00.001+08:00

i shouldnt be posting here cos i have 347682653472 things to do on hand.

HATE IDMI FOR LYFE.

2011-06-30T17:34:00.003+08:00

i cant bear to delete my smses on my phone ):

it has been accumulating since UG day, emily's birthday, sl trainings, PLTC, post PLTC, skit practice, camp challenge, STC/PDP.

like, reading through my smses will actually evoke memories.

i have no idea why i feel so sentimental nowadays lol.

2011-06-26T18:35:00.001+08:00

im getting bullied on twitter now.

whole world so mean to me ))):

2011-04-02T13:26:00.002+08:00

gosh, i've completely forgotten about the existence of this blog! I couldn't even rmb the url of my blog for instance. and then i forgot my password. anyway. i'm supposed to write the "I love my school" essay/prose. lag, i know. but i've only just found out i need to do it! and it's due on monday. 2 days to write an essay on why i love my school. seriously? THIS IS HARD. i shall do a prose. prose= something like a pri school compo, but more cheem. and then it occured to me that i've forgotten how to write a compo. i tried to start writing, and then it suddenly appeared to look more like a blogpost. THAT WAS WHEN I REMEMBERED ABOUT MY BLOG. guess i'll have to start digging out my pri sch stuff now ._.

2011-02-07T18:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes,
i really wonder why i even care.
honestly, what's the point of trying so hard?

2011-01-16T18:50:00.002+08:00

chinese new year's in less than a month.
i see new year goodies/abalone advert everywhere lol.

sigh i dont rmb the last time i went to chinatown. no time anymore i guess.
but what i do rmb is that i used to look forward going to chinatown every year.
in the day we'll queue for bak kwa, and i'll sip coconut juice on those scorching hot weekend afternoons.
and i absolutely loved going to the sweet stall and picking out those oriental and asian sweets selling at xxx per 100g.
there were several times we went in the night.
i recall buying grilled cuttlefish and eating it with my family at some back alley cos everywhere else was too crowded.

and when cny finally came,
i always enjoyed visiting relatives, going to malaysia etc.
but what i secretly looked forward to was going to river hongbao to PLAY (:
back then, river hongbao was equivalent to say, USS to me.
i'll queue excitedly to buy tickets and go on the rides, then attempt trying to win a soft toy at those games stations.
and when i cant, we'll go off to eat nice food like satay :D
when we've played enough, we'll look around. i rmb lots of potrait and fengshui stalls.

in the past, cny was really cny.
the excitement, the visiting, the eating, the playing.
but now, it's just "yes, it's another break."

but at the back of my mind, we'll probably be worrying about some weekend hw/ projects.
i wonder why i ever wanted to come to sec sch in the first place ._.

2010-12-31T17:21:00.002+08:00

it's the last day of 2010 and i still havent received any notifications or whatsoever.
make me check my letter box and email everyday ._.
ah well maybe im just not meant to get that scholarship.
honestly speaking, i started to regret applying for it the days nearer to the interview date.
i mean, i spent the entire 2 mths of my hols preparing and reading all things chinese when others were playing.
it was then that i realised maybe im not cut out for such a scholarship after all.
who was i trying to kid?

but i felt so so so relieved when that interview was over.
waiting for your turn at the interview was like waiting to take an oral exam.
im glad there's no oral anymore! :D

2011 tmr.
that sounds so cliche hehehe.
YEAR3.
WE CAN DO IT.

2010-12-19T19:30:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i really wonder what i've gotten myself into ._.
sighhhh.
i kinda regret it now.

anyway, orientation prep starts tmr!
time to cut me nailssssssssssssssss (:
and btw, this is the first time in idk how many years i never painted my nails for one whole yr.
well ok at least during dec hols. (did i paint in june?)

genting

2010-12-13T16:53:00.003+08:00

okok, it's a little late but so what?

i had a fab time there!

sure enough, there isnt much to shop there, but the rides were awesomeeee (:

i think the best part was still the weather though.

i mean, it's not like it snowed or anything, but it was definitely much much cooler than singapore.

and the places are beautifully decorated. i kinda get the christmassy feel already.

OOOH AND THE BUFFET.

not too bad, but they didnt have my favourite oysters )):

but the sashimi and cakes made up for it!

anyway, as i was walking to and fro from my hotel to first world plaza and what not, i saw THIS:

SOOOO CHIO.
i mean it's so girlish!
unlike those typical plain coloured suitcases.
i suppose it would be ridiculous lugging this suitcase home.
and it's from Bonia btw, not cheap $$$$

siannn now back from holiday, have to start preparing for my bsp interview.

DREAMS

2010-12-06T12:20:00.002+08:00

gosh, i've had a series of weird dreams for the past week.
so the first one was abt a marathon.
i was running a marathon with 2h and 2l for some reason. and the marathon was held both outdoors and indoors.
i was literally running in my dream!
i mean, the whole dream was so long and detailed!
and then when i was about to finish running the entire journey when i woke up. argh.

the second dream was really disgusting and i dont really wish to post abt it hmm. nevertheless, it felt very real. EEW.

the third dream was realky ridiculous, come to think of it.
there was this war/riot like scene, and everyone was scrambling off into their trucks, trying to escape.
and then i, seeing one empty truck ran to it too.
i clearly rmb vying with a girl for it.
we both got on, but i pushed her off o.o
so there. i got it.
I STOLE A TRUCK. and by "truck", i dont just mean the usual kind of lorries you see on the road.
it was those types that was super long, the kinds where you'll load baskets and baskets of durians on. ( i think.)
and then these random ppl start coming onto the truck too and before i knew it, we were driving off to INDONESIA.
who does that anyway??
and might i say, i dont even recognise the ones who were driving -.-

and last night, i dreamt that to stay at home alone, while my parents and bro went to collect the sch posting results( idk why they had to go to sch to collect it)
i was still sleeping on the sofa, but i heard some noises in the bathroom, like someone bathing.
weird.
and then the next moment, someone was cooking and washing up in the kitchen.
righttttt. who was that man.
so when i was just abt to go check out who it was, my parents came back, ah super happy etc etc.
and btw, in my dream, dhs' aggregate dropped to 252 ._.
and admist everything, my dad and i realised that there was actl a burglar in my hse.
and he's hiding in the bedroom toilet.
HAHAHA.
my dad and i took these super thick books (dictionaries (Y) )
and on the count of 3, we would open the toilet door and start hurling the books at the burglar.
too bad we missed.
so we started fighting, in the bedroom!
INSTEAD, of doing a more logical thing, like, i dont know, call the police in the first place??
yeah and i woke up.

who knows what weird things my brain would conjure up tonight again? (:

2010-12-01T17:06:00.002+08:00

WE GOT 3RD FOR CAMP GALORE
:DDD
it was fun, and it was quite an experience.
cant believe it's all over )):

i'll miss bringing all the mu down,
bringing down and climbing up the stack of chairs,
rafting and tying mini gadgets,
the satisfaction that we get when the gadgets turn out nice,
and of course, THE FUN AND HUMOUR LOL.
ah well.

WENLIN

2010-11-23T19:30:00.002+08:00

this post is dedicated to wenlin, who kept me amused and entertained the whole of yesterday:

HI WENLIN! or shall i say wen ling? (:
nah i wont annoy you abt that anymore.
so, just a few things to say to you!
1) i hope you've figured out how to sing that spongebob squarepants song, i await the day to sing it to amelia, tsepuay and me
2) pls stop saying my finger is dislocated, it can bend perfectly (:
3) DO NOT attempt to carry a stack of 4 chairs on your back again. it's way too heavy and you look very very comical when you carry it (look like a tortoise) hahaha. crap every time i think of that image i still laugh HAHAHA.
4) I WANNA SEE YOU DANCE! :D
5) pls continue to be my cute, funny and quater-brained ex patrol mate :D
tyvm.

note: this is not a suanning attempt (:

2010-11-18T19:34:00.002+08:00

CLASS CHALET WAS QUITE FUN I SUPPOSE.
but it made me realise how much i'll miss 2H next yr.
i think we all have interesting characters ^^

like any normal day, we walked through the gantry to the dte chalet.
but from far we saw these ppl with cameras and stuff.
LITTLE DID WE KNOW THEY WERE REPORTERS FROM MEDIACORP!

unlucky cheryl got interviewed hehe.
i was quite lucky i suppose.
sabrina and i realised they were from camera crew and ran like siao.
heng uh heng uh (:

so we watched the unborn.
and boogeyman 2.
BUT SINGMEI AND I WERE HIDING MOST OF THE TIME -___-
sorry luh.
i know i asked for horror nad thriller movies but i was hoping for smt like case 39.
ah well.

then i decided to help with the bbq.
guides and scout blowing ftw :D
but i think we all suffered first degree burns.
nah my face was just red. (:
and hey, we influenced the other ppl in class kay!
they helped with the blowing too (:
i think the bbq was successful lorh.
not just because of us, but thanks to jiaying, randall and jonathan for starting the fire!

and then thr were these few kids from the next door chalet who came and bbq marshmallows with us.
SOOOOO CUTEEEE :D
and their dad was impressed we were from dunman high.
hope we didnt tarnish out reputation though.
apparently he thinks we were vry smart ppl.
RIGHT.

then thank you sabrina and benjamin for sending me to the bus stop!
we shall have out ivp outing soon (:

YAY I LOVE CHALET.

2010-11-16T14:43:00.002+08:00

11Y3J! ♥
quite cool huh.
3jupjup (tentative)

OH YEAH OH YEAH I GOT MY TRIPS SCI PLUS ENRICHED LIT (:
which actl means we learn more things, which actl means we studied so hard just to study even more in yr3. nice.

so like, ex p7 oriole yr2s chalet is over ):
we've been counting down for so long alr!
it was insanely fun hahaha.
couldnt bbq cos we dont have enough money.
and thr was no wii cos we were all out before chalet so vry mafan to bring
and thr were no dvds cos deborah couldnt bring.

boring? no.

we played cards, watched tv and most importantly, painted out nails!! :D
bimbo much hehehe. but it kept me awake.
we played water bombs and sparklers.
woah luckily tt guy from the opposite chalet didnt complain about anything.
sparklers were kinda fail this yr.
gosh i really wonder how we did it last yr ._.

then we bathed etc etc.

after which we had the awesomest time gossiping.
"WHAT'S DISCUSSED IN THIS CHALET STAYS IN THIS CHAET"

SO YEAH (:
but it was fun and interesting.
oh and i love suanning wenlin :DD
tan gang qing heheheh.

funfunfun :D

2010-11-11T19:21:00.002+08:00

"omg are you choking??"

wenlin nods head.

"ARE YOU FAT? xD"

it's just weird to ask if she's preganant. fine, it's even weirder to answer that you're pregnant.

FA course is over and all of us passed! :D
yayayayayay.
im a qualified first aider okayyyy. though i cant guarantee that i may not kill you when i do CPR hmm.
quote xls "ribs may break sometimes, but saving life more impt"
well, i dont even think i can break ribs. it's pretty hard y'know.
and gosh the rescue breathing is killer.
even if the casualty doesnt die, I will die from saving him/her. considering that i cant even blow a balloon, i guess getting the chest of the dummy to rise is quite commendable yeah (:
(yes, i almost died from getting that chest to rise too)

bandaging is fun!
but did i mention that the triangular bandage freakin smells like stale cheese?
stinks like idk what.
i wanted to take a deep breath then hold it for as long as i can as everyone opened up the bandage.
i took a deep breath and smelled the stale cheese instead. i meant bandage ._.
you would think that someone wrapped the bandage around his foot for 3 days straight without bathing.
anyway, when everyone was bandaging, it looked like some earthquake or bomb hit our school.
ONE CLASSROOM FULL OF CASUALTIES (Y)
it was rather hilarious lah (:

and the theory test was :DDDD
although all of us studied like crap the night before (it was like studying for bio eoys again).
but i'd rather we get an easy test anyway hehehe. no complaints :D

accident prevention test tmr.
JIAYOU,

2,3,4 and 1.

2010-11-08T21:17:00.002+08:00

1 basic cha cha cha
2 basic cha cha cha
3 basic cha cha cha
4 basic cha cha cha.

and the cycle continues with new york, shoulder.

gosh am i even making sense here.
but cha cha just now was so fun! although i couldnt really shake my hips when i danced hmm ._.
i wanna learn again, hehehe.

BUT, the most epic part (other than going wrong direction, stepping on each others' toes etc) was when we were having break, we started singing guides songs, esp those campfire ones, and you see how 10 ppl were doing the SAME ACTIONS, AT THE SAME TIME.
songleaders! <3

2010-11-05T18:27:00.002+08:00

thanks to tsepuay, i feel like eating chocolate ice-cream.

even though i had alr eaten those 1 dollar kind.

YES, i was practically shrieking when i heard that familiar ice-cream bell ringing downstairs ._.

CHOCOLATEEEE ♥

cos that's what holidays are all abt

2010-11-04T17:20:00.002+08:00

SO LIKE, I DONE WITH EOYS (long ago) AND ATC. (:
now it's time for my annual atc post whoooo.
last yr's atc didnt feel like last yr, felt like half a yr ago only or smt.

day 1.
cabbed to sch, 2 mu, 3 ponchos, 1 guides u and 1 sleeping bag in my hand. plus my camp bag duh.
" OMG WHAT IF I FORGOT TO PACK SMT IN STYROFOAM BOX" i rmb saying.
which was, quite true i suppose ._.
and we were late. i was freaking out. like, before camp alr like that, then atc HOW ):
and i was camp D PL. for part 1 only heng uh.
but nonetheless, it was still stressful. i mean, if our patrol didnt pitch out tents properly, then we'll probably have to sleep on the grass lol.
then we had lunch before starting on camp D part 2. screwed like idk what.
thank goodness the seniors helped us (: THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
then we had night PT.
running in the dark was quite difficult at first. we got more familiarised with the diff parts aft tt that i actl knew whr thr would be puddles of water, mud, logs etc OKAY.
night games was cancelled cos the rain was too heavy ))):
i was sorta looking forward to it. scared, but looking forward. oh well.
had to sleep in the hall.
apparently, it always rains on the first night of ATC. i rmb sleeping in the freezing room last yr too. natural aircon (:

day 2.
woke up at 6, went to brush teeth. that was the last time i ever brushed for the rest of the camp.
i was so worried abt inspectionnnn. didnt have appetite to eat. (ok, didnt have appetite throughout the whole camp anw)
yeah it was the most screwed activity throughout atc for our patrol. dont wanna talk abt it ):
then had outdoor cooking :D
it brought back memories of orientation prep hahaha.
"no black pepper soup uh" quote mrs poh.
our food didnt have ashes, but it did taste like it ._.
survived without diarrhoea or anything. somehow, no matter how much ashes gets into our food during outdoor cooking, we nvr seem to have food poisoning. seriously.
and then came the long awaited OJ.
IT WAS SO FUN OMG.
the wild boar stn was epic.
"bomb attack!" was what we heard at first.
then it occured to me that it was boar attack. OH. and the first thing that came to my mind was RUN ZIGZAG!
so with our bottles, mu, peibei and FAK, our whole patrol ran from left to right.
i was laughing like crap, we looked like some crazy ppl (:
but i really enjoyed OJ. we all did lol.
andand it was CAMPFIRE AFTER THAT!!
after days and days of practicing, it was finally time for us to show off our vocals and crazy dances (:
we really, really tried our best.
SONGLEADERS FTW. but we were still below standard D:
we shall train our jnrs to become better than we were yeah?
had our bbq aft that. and got punished for not clearing up.
seriously, what was wrong with us, why didnt we see it?
then at 12plus again.

day3.
aft we cleared up, went back to our tents.
00:23.
"OH TSEPUAY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!"
and everyone in our tent started wishing her happy birthday hahahaha.
then at 01:18 i heard someone shouting fire outside the tents.
and then i rmb smt abt a firedrill..
"OMG OMG FIRE! wake up wake up wake up!" i was practically jumping in the tent.
woah, we thought it was like 4am, we thought it was night evac.
run like siao.
halfway through someone was shouting for help.
"eh someone shouting for help leh! we go help lah!"
so tsepuay, jieying and i went back.
apparently the others thought they were trying to kup ppl :/
then aft the firedrill went back to sleep again.
throughout the night, i dreamt that we had firedrills 3 times (Y)
woke up at 6 plus later in the morn.
strike camp, strike tent.
walau when we were abt to dao our tent, thr was this frog on the canvas.
last yr my tent have frog, this yr also the same.
haiyo.
comp games was fun (:
i had to do a forfeit with amanda hahaha.
SOMEHOW, I JUST CANT RMB HOW TO DO A CHICKEN DANCE LEH.
went back to sch for lunch, then had mystery games.
i was so worried i would screw up mass changing again.
WHY?
MY HANGER FREAKIN BROKE.
any part of my guides u would drop out any moment.
but the yr4s roleplayed and talked to us instead.
it felt like old jihe times again (:
debrief, prize presentation etc.
then seniors talked to us individually.
it was hilarious lol.
but sorry nicole and jiayi, i really didnt know we took so long. and sorry i didnt call you guys to come back too! sorry deborah for making you wait so long heh :/

SO ATC 10' IS OVER.
aft not bathing for 2 days, not brushing teeth (only brushed once) and stinking up the whole cab.
aft bringing back a broken styrofoam box, with things falling out half the time.
aft worrying and preparing for it.

it's memorable though, and although we didnt get top 3 like what we planned for,
p3 zephyr survived through it tgt as a patrol.
isnt that the best part?
p3 zephyr 合峰 ♥

2010-09-11T12:31:00.002+08:00

i cant believe hike was just a week ago. omg.
I WANNA GO HIKE AGAIN ))):

anyway. this blog is getting dead.

SO I AM GONNA STOP BLOGGING UNTIL AFTER EOYS.
OR JUST AN EXCUSE.

bye bye world (:

2010-08-31T18:23:00.002+08:00

so i did not do those fancy ones. but i also spent alot of time doing this ok!

went back to park view.
walau waited so long for cheery. *blames person in charge*
but she had to pay tt extra 6 dollars. cos the cab waited. yeah we called a cab. those 7 seater one.
cheryl was right! can save money instead of taking 2 cabs (Y)
arghhhhhhhhhhhhh park viewwwwwwwwwwwwww.
that tiny but colourful sch haha. that stress free life.
cant believed they changed the library.
man i love my teachers.
mrs wong says we're still the best sighhh (:

and i love the swing at lee yann's hse.
it's the one i always wanted in my room, but i dont think they sell it anymore )):

2010-08-28T19:39:00.002+08:00

gah yesterday was screwed. yeah i was too sleepy to post yesterday.
so i did geog wrongly.
and then i screwed up during OJ, didnt know what was wrong with me ytd. atc i die alr.
like, i just forgot everything all of a sudden. even water bottles. ahhhhhh and my yuanzila was wet ):
we couldnt do alot of things. fail man. nvm i will IMPROVE. not will, must;
and then as if that wasnt bad enough, we were all talking abt how we screwed up on 158 (with deborah, wenlin, yimin, shanice and grace) when it decided to jerk.
like BRAKE. and i thought, oh crap i dont wanna get involved in some accident. the first thing that came to my mind was "FIRST AIDERS!". In that split second before i smashed into the seat in front of me.
and shanice had to scare me by saying her ear was bleeding.
deborah flew to the floor (Y)
my eye and cheek still hurts sia.
158 what's wrong with you.

2010-08-24T22:35:00.002+08:00

ahaha or this could work too. but i'll probably be called bimbo and i think it's a bit weird to give male teachers this kind ._.
which reminds me, mr lim was so niceeee ytd!
we were like trying our luck to take the lift (hehe), then at 3rd level, uh huh, if you're thinking what im thinking, we were called out lah.
for some reason, emily and i were like stoning? with some other girls.
we were somehow hiding at the corner of the lift. then the other teacher called us out and i was abt to leave when mr lim was like, "nvm lah. they can stay lah"
other teacher *stones* , keep silent ( i think)
mr lim "still have space lah, never mind never mind!"

shocked man! haha i shall try hard to score even better for physics then (:

2010-08-22T18:22:00.001+08:00

i shall attempt doing smt like that for teacher's day.
stick in some kitkat, spam some nutella + hershey's chocoloate syrup?
mmmmmmmm :D

teachers you're gonna grow fat after eating this!
if i dont fail in making this (as usual), that is ._.

2010-08-19T21:01:00.000+08:00

the awesome life a of dunmanian.

2010-08-19T18:41:00.002+08:00

i just love art lessons.
i mean:
aircon
claymation's fun
chatting
listening music/ watch yog LOL
table keep moving away hehehe sorry kathleen's group

and it's something i wont take for the rest of my dunman high life after this yr .___.

2010-08-14T13:12:00.002+08:00

what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger.
PT yesterday was awesome (:
havent had such a pt in a long time.
i realise how big the sch can actl be, when you run from one end to the other lol.

anyway p3/p8 ftw! i nvr expected us to get first AHAHAHA :D

2010-08-12T17:39:00.000+08:00

i dont wanna screw up tmr._. gah whr's my motivation to start on my work.

2010-08-09T17:27:00.001+08:00

NO I DID NOT GET THE HEELS. i mean if i really wore it then i really dont know what'll happen ._.

2010-08-08T18:57:00.002+08:00

i should blog more.
yup.

DONT WE JUST LOVE HOLIDAYS :DDD
and i went to try out this pair of platform wedges today (4 inches) and y'know what,
for once,
I WAS TALL. like wow.
i had to buy one cos my prev pair died on me last week.
so i was happily strolling out of church when suddenly, i felt one of my feet feeling vry flat. one of the platform dropped out -.-
so ok, i continued walking on, one leg being longer than the other, looking stupid with the wooden platform in my hand.
and if that's not bad enough, the other platform decided to drop out too.
then i still had the soles so not so bad.
i continued walking and the sole dropped out too. wth.
and i had to drag my feet all the way home. it was making some weird sweeping sound as i dragged the sole along.
then my dad opened the door and he thought it was some worker in flip-flops dragging around outside our house. (Y)
which brings me back to today.
it was gorgeous, reasonable, but maybe too high. no im not complaining abt being too tall.
i mean, what if i tripped on a curb or on the road?
i will be the one dying, not the shoes.
i shall find a better one soon HAHAHA (:

2010-08-02T21:18:00.002+08:00

GUESS WHAT.
158 decided to leave a whole group of dunmanians anxiously waiting for the other one to come donkey years later today.
but no, we werent late (:

THANK YOU WENLIN'S DAD :D
if he didnt come to fetch us we'll really be late alr.

seriously lah im tired of complaining abt 158 so can sbs pls start implementing the changes?

anyway. symposium was -_-
better still we had lessons aft that. i mean last yr we slacked off the entire day hehehe.
and i rmb getting very interested in IvP since last yr.
i was like, " omg, im so gonna try out for that next yr in yr 2. i dont like subj based rs".
and dont have much regrets (other than the fact that it may pull my sci grade down like siao) so yeah (:

imma try out bsp this yr :DD
try.

2010-07-25T15:24:00.002+08:00

omg i dont know what to post.
this blog has been dead for 2 weeks (Y)
im really sick of school that is. because have so many things to do, i havent been bothering abt this blog, i have hardly 5 hours of sleep each night, i dont have time to read my chi book (for tt reading thingy lah), i dont even have time to revise.
you see, blogging and complaining abt this kind of things get boring after awhile so what's the point?

i emphasise- SCHOOL SUCKS.

it's probably like another 4 plus yrs or so before i leave dhs, then it's like what, university?
unless i fail a-levels or smt.

is this how we're supposed to spend our teenage yrs?
i wish not ._.
but then again, looking at those even more unfortunate ppl, who cant even afford to go to sch when they really want to, we're really lucky right.

if im late for sch tmr again i laugh.
158 go die.

2010-07-10T16:08:00.002+08:00

"/.Tuesday, December 1, 2009

10 good things abt why it is good to have 6 year1s in a patrol :
1. more effecient when we do things
2. 6 is an even number, so very tiny chances of ppl getting left out
3. nice number for a cozy chalet
4. when we split cost for prezzies, each of us can pay less
5. nice number for gossio sessions
6. nice number for taking neos
7. enough ppl for playing table soccer
8. nice number for study grp
9. more ppl to turn to when troubled
10. THE MORE THE MERRIER :DDDDD "

this was from last yr. we nvr expected that.
and i rmb first day of guides peifen was asking me if they(yr1s) were gonna be transferred.
i didnt tell her that they may get transferred in yr3 cos it's still too early anyway.
so we said "no lah no lah wont one".
crap i really miss those times wth. the birthday celebrations, the screwed up presents, the outings, jihes with them especially.
but i suppose it is a new beginning.
let's not dwell in this unhappiness.

2010-07-07T22:11:00.003+08:00

since im bored and i dont feel like doing the IvP ppt yet, i shall do what tanxuan says. (seriously.)

TANXUAN

you shld know im not good with words hahaha.
so yeah. i think 1st few days of sch i dont like you. cos i thought you vry haolian heheh (:
but no, you werent haolian (ok not really lah) but you're evillllllllllll.
huh always bully me, pull my hair, poke me, call my name when you have nth to do.
suddenly "TESSA TAN!"
but you've helped me in class before so THANK YOU LOR :D
and sometimes you vry comical. you always play with my porkchop ;DD
and you are rather comical too. ( rmb the time i asked you whr porkchop was and you said charsiew or fan choy etc)
and lastly, if we go separate classes next yr, i think i'll miss all your bullying ._.

omg cant believe i said that.

2010-07-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

6FG outing was awesomeeeeeeee (:

even though not alot of ppl turned up but we still had fun yea?
i really miss park view D: i like it how we all both classes were so close.
and how we seem to be always given priority. FINE AND EXTRA CHEEM CLASSES THAT TEACH THINGS I DONT UNDERSTAND.
i rmb how all we slacked throughout all the math olympiad class and sci classes etc.
heheheh :D

2010-07-02T16:46:00.002+08:00

HAPPY YOUTH DAY PEOPLE HAHA.
i dont think last yr have any youth day celecrations right.
anyway so we were the lucky ones who had to part of the logistics personnel for the telematch games.
stayed back ytd for briefing and realised tht many things the SCs were talking abt didnt apply to us ._.
then we got moving. might i mention 48 classroom tables, 84 classroom chairs, 13 canteen tables and 26 canteen benches? plus some other things.
i think today we either very slack or suddenly have alot of things to do lol.
SO IM ACHING ALL OVER NOW. MOVE HERE MOVE THR. move move move again.
we got kinda pissed by some ppl. but not really their fault anyway. i know there's still some nice and sincere ones there ;DD
i think we all have muscles alr. because of the canteen stufffff.
and although we got pissed some ppl (kay fine guides and scouts) still very funny hahaha.
gl ttm!
so yeah. and aft tt went for concert. it was awesomeeee (:

6FG class dinner tonight whooooooooooooo~

2010-06-30T21:13:00.003+08:00

yesterday we went to art friend to get materials for ivp prototype.
WE HAD THE CRAZIEST TIME EVER.
gonna upload the photos on facebook soon. camwhoring ftw! lucky we didnt get kicked out -.-
like we were really making alot of noise and doing retarted things.
and i went for cip todayyyy.
we had to go to st hilda's home. then sabrina had to finish the sandwich before going in so we waited for her at the fitness corner.
it's supposed to be for old people i think but then the "equipment" or wtv it's called was scary o.o
very fast. then aft trying out everything you'll feel like you're turning on the ground as you walk.
so we had to wrap presents for cip.
and some wasnt very well wrapped so the lady in charge was saying that it would not pass and the directors will not approve. "it's for the very rich ppl"
the way she said made it sound like it would pass if we were gonna give those gifts to poorer ppl ._.
what is this lah.

WHY TMR START AT 8AM D:

2010-06-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

i promised tan xuan a post.
but im busy and im sleepyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. so i shall post tmr ahahah (:

but all i wanna say is tt ivp tdy was epic, sometimes i just really love our grp haha.

2010-06-25T18:34:00.001+08:00

3 days ago still having fun in patrol chalet, 3 days later i'll probably be like doing my homework/ last minute chionging of ivp prototype.
talking abt it makes my blood boil.

2010-06-19T12:12:00.001+08:00

stayover tonight.
to do what? do project.
IM HOPING I WONT FALL ASLEEP. *prays hard*
emily cant come ):
and jalyn better come uh!

geog and history. sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
i hate projects -.-

2010-06-17T17:34:00.002+08:00

im full ):
i had tim sum just now whooo.
we had a really hard time looking for the restaurant. but the food was good so worth it!
then aft eating we were at shaw complex (i think. we just always call it the isetan building) then my bro and mum needed to go to the restroom, we went up the escalator and i saw this super nice dress. I WANTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
and many nice blouses.
SO IM GOING BACK NEXT WEEK :D
i love GSS (:

2010-06-13T20:28:00.002+08:00

bahahaha havent blogged in a long time hmm.
i cooked dinner today :D
fine my dad helped me.
roast chicken and potato wedges!
reminds me of orientation when we roasted the entire chicken ;DD
oh and the watermelon one. which i nvr tried ._.

2010-06-06T21:53:00.002+08:00

on fri went to benjamin's hse (again) to do ivp which failed terribly (again).
took bus there, luckily i didnt get lost. well, knowing me.
met them at starbucks then we went to foodcourt to eat.
omg, over there have lots of good food, but because my ulcers were hurting so much i cant eat those heaty and fried food D:
and i watched sabrina eat her tempura in front of me hmph.
went around picking some other materials for our prototype before we went to his house.
he was like running all the way up the hill, while sabrina and i were slowly strolling in.
obviously he reached way before us, then he couldnt leave the door open, and he couldnt hear us calling for him to open the door.
were we stuck outside? NO.
sabrina totally opened his main gate from outside and just open the front door. dangerous sia!
so the prototype making failed.

WE ENDED UP PLAYING WII.
HAHAHA :D
but i failed at mariokart heh. keep getting 12th -_________-

but it was still funfunfun.
everytime i go benjamin's hse to do i cant concentrate. haiyo.

2010-06-01T19:07:00.002+08:00

saturday
open house!
stayed under the kitchen tent the whole day. i was supposed to tie those cool gadgets one lor, but we lost them and ended up helping somewhere else -.-
showed mainly the outreach ppl, cos the oepn house ppl couldnt really be bothered. like one just walked off when we were explaining. THANKS UH!
and my mom and bro came. asked me where the canteen and library was lol. too bad cannot usher them :/
apparently they spent 9 bucks at the cafe. (Y)
got super bored, played games AHAHA. and we almost died when the scouts started singing(yes, everyone was BORED.)
i thought aft that need to chai everyth but we were dismissed o.o
which leaves my baisheng and basin and idk what else with someone else. gah i fail so bad ._.
if cannot get back i laugh.
watched shrek aft that with michelle, xiaoqi and zephania (:
and i was so broke cos i forgot no student price that i couldnt buy popcorn or drinks. first time man!

yeah anyway yesterday i went for the long awaited dental appointment. RIGHT.
waited for 1 hr plus before i went in. next time, im gonna bring my homework to do there.
july. still have 1 mth moreeee. always like that. i think the dentist too busy. wtv.
extracted 4 tooth ytd, at once.
the injections almost killed me. 13 injections?
then it started to bleed (duh) alot. scare me sia. like the last time i pluck teeth was way back in pri sch and that was like 1 at a time so yeah.
had to bite on the freakin gauze for an hour. i think my jaw and mouth died.
my mouth couldnt close hahahaha. so couldnt even drink water lol.
well i looked like some stroke patient, esp when the anaesthetic started wearing off.
now i look like some pri 1 kid with no teeth.
SIGH THOSE MEMORIES.
wth, i even have a slight problem pronouncing (like shh and ch).

I BETTER HAVE NICE TEETH AT THE END OF THESE 2 YEARS. ._.

and because of the extraction i cant go kbox today D:
sorry cheryl!

2010-05-26T20:50:00.002+08:00

electives are over ):
tmr normal lessons, day 10 some more! day 10=music=screwed cos we havent thought of our talent show item.

anyway.
ELECTIVES WAS FUN!
baked alot of stuff: pizza, fruit buns, tuna quinche, viennese biscuits (sp?), hot dog buns, cup cakes.
everyday get to bring home food whoo~
one thing im sure, i cant be a baker in future. my legs almost died from standing too long these few days.
thank you patient and nice chefs :D

aya i want to continue another day of baking leh.

2010-05-22T10:55:00.002+08:00

BACK FROM YR2 LEVEL CAMP DAZZLE MANIA 2010!!
gonna do a long long post (:

DAY1
went to chai chee for our CIP.
was allocated to the same grp as kathleen, jiahui, valerie, cheryl and jonathan.
then we were supposed to clean this particular unit but no one opened the door -.-
waited and stoned outside the lift. for a long time. cheryl and i were complaining abt how hungry we were lol.
instructor decided to split our grp up and jonathan, cheryl and i went to help singmei's grp.
THANKS CHERYL AND SINGMEI FOR HELPING ME WITH SCRUBBING THE TOILET.
it was dirty and smelly at first but im glad we got it cleaned up!
and i realised aft all the scrubbing we werent hungry anymore haha.
performed top of the world and baby aft that whoooo.
our class can sing okayy. we sang all the way to changi (:
free radio for the whole class loll. oh oh and on the bus we saw smt VERY INTERESTING and the entire class was squealing.
lucky the bus driver didnt scold anyth heh.
pitched tents (easy!) then went for dinner.
aft dinner was nightwalkkkkk.
no one scaring us sadly ):
then i went tgt with denise. i knew i couldnt go alone, i confirm walk wrong direction. thr was this point where it was supposed to be a Y-junction, but we saw 3 pathways and went blur o.o
turns out one of it leads to a dead end haha.
and i had time to bathe :D
DAy2
had low e and high e, didnt have time for rafting cos it was raining phew.
low e was ok ok, but i liked low wall. or high wall. whatever. too bad couldnt play whale watch :/
i rmb p6 camp one was super fun!
waited and stoned for a long time before high e cos of the rain.
at first i didnt wanna go up, but im so happpy i did!!
yuyan and i had to climb up these logs and we were the only pair in the entire cohort who managed to complete it. THANKS YUYAN!
i was screaming throughout and im so sorry i kicked your face at first :/
but we did it woohoo! no more height phobia. i think.
at the end of the day had to share toilet with denise to bathe. boys toilet some more. the whole toilet was flooded. which made my bathing bag flooded too. my toilet roll ended up a soapy flat square haha!
DAY3
off to expedition! it was super hot that day and tse puay and i were saying how we'd rather go for OJ (we were wearing slacks heh. and we were bored at that time)
i think the only fun part was outdoor cooking.
but the water took a long time to boil. -.-
and it started raining so our last 2 packs of noodles was HARD.
oh we also went to the beach for a while and I SAW MY HOUSE.
i never knew i lived so near to pulau ubin omg.
earlier in the morn the teachers surprised us by saying we would be sleeping in the chalet that night!! :DDD
bathed, had dinner and campfire.
campfire was high and fun and nice music, but my grp performance was epic fail.
ahh well the instructors were still nice abt it :)
had a nice bath in the chalet aft that shiok man.
and blasted air con.
went upstairs and started gossiping until like 3 am hehe.
they told us 1 am lights out so we really turned off the lights. and yarui fell down the stairs cos it was so dark.
and i felt like some failure since i dont know what to do. lucky have 2 sjab ppl help out.
she sprained her ankle my gosh.
yeah we slept very well that night. unlike the tents which were humid and wet ._.

DAY4
we woke up late. whoops. slept too well.
hurriedly cleared up and our class girls was the first to get ready (:
had breakfast then took the boat back.

4 days, over just like that.
i rmb how much i was dreading and complaining abt it, yet now i MISS IT SO MUCH.
everything felt like a dream.
i love our instructors timothy and winnie! really nice, interesting and funny ppl.
i love grp 15 and 16 alibaba! REALLY NICE KNOWING ALL YOU GUYS.

level camp 2010, i'll always rmb the times we spent tgt :D

2010-05-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

seriously, my lift's starting to freak me out. it's crazy -.-

ok so it has been this way since quite some time ago.
few weeks earlier, i think the lift cables have some problem. like the whole lift was shaking and felt like it would drop any time. then when it reached first lvl, it felt like it was sinking o.o
my neighbour took the lift from 9 storey, supposed to go to 1st lvl, but no, it went BELOW THE FIRST LVL. MY BLOCK DOES NOT HAVE A BASEMENT FYI. then went to highest lvl. and finally went to 1st lvl again.

now it's siao again.
like instead of flasing if im going up/down and showing the lvl i was at, it goes "OVERLOAD", "maintenence 31", maintenence 32", MAINTENENCE, then " for fireman use only" and "emergency".
my gosh. i dont wanna freakin die in a lift -_______-

2010-05-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

im sick again -.-
this sucks.

2010-05-08T13:03:00.002+08:00

i saw this super touching story online (my mom told me abt this story this morn):

retrieved from:
http://www.citehr.com/89610-mothers-sacrifice-very-touching-story.html

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarrassment. My mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for the money we needed she was such an embarrassment. There was this one day during elementary school.
I remember that it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed.
How could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ran out. The next day at school..."Your mom only has one eye?!" and they taunted me.

I wished that my mom would just disappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom, why don't you have the other eye?! You're only going to make me a laughingstock. Why don't you just die?" My mom did not respond. I guess I felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that I had said what I'd wanted to say all this time.

Maybe it was because my mom hadn't punished me, but I didn't think that I had hurt her feelings very badly.

That night...I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, and then turned away. Because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. So I told myself that I would grow up and become successful, because I hated my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty.

Then I studied really hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence I had. Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then I had kids, too. Now I'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesn't remind me of my mom.

This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when someone unexpected came to see me "What?! Who's this?!" ...It was my mother...Still with her one eye. It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

And I asked her, "Who are you? I don't know you!!!" as if I tried to make that real. I screamed at her "How dare you come to my house and scare my daughter! GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!" And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, I'm so sorry. I may have gotten the wrong address," and she disappeared. Thank good ness... she doesn't recognize me. I was quite relieved. I told myself that I wasn't going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life.

Then a wave of relief came upon me...one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. I lied to my wife saying that I was going on a business trip. After the reunion, I went down to the old shack, that I used to call a house...just out of curiosity there, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground. But I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

She wrote:
My son...
I think my life has been long enough now. And... I won't visit Seoul anymore... but would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while? I miss you so much. And I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion. But I decided not to go to the school.... For you... I'm sorry that I only have one eye, and I was an embarrassment for you.

You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so I gave you mine...I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did. The couple times that you were angry with me. I thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me.' I miss the times when you were still young around me.

I miss you so much. I love you. You mean the world to me.
My world shattered!!!

Then I cried for the person who lived for me... My Mother

so sad this story D:

2010-05-08T10:15:00.002+08:00

had guides ytd whoo~
year3s had idmi, so it was up to us to lead the year1s!
had to tie kitchen dresser and baggage rack, but we ran out of some mu :/
had to improvise quite alot for the kitchen dresser oops.
but year1s are very cooperative thanks yall are wonderful juniors :D
it was fun to be pl even for that short period of time ahahaha.(i know zephania and charlene agrees ;DDD)
aft that had to cai everything and somehow i hit my finger against a bag of charcoal so now there's this red patch that hurts like mad.

then we had PT :D
jie pt is always funfunfun!
i was thinking and counting back the last time we had pt, and it was way back last term, cos this few weeks have alot of hols+camp+speech day rehearsals.
and i realised the importance of water.
in the morning i pulled my muscle or got a leg cramp( i just woke up so still a bit blur, but i just remember my leg super pain),
then aft pt i think it got worst :/
oh well I STILL LOVE PT (:
then had patrol corner. the first aid box's cool.

omg patrol passing down next week o.o
i still rmb last year's one! but i forgot what i had to do -.-
like step out then.. do what??
ahh someone pls tell me.

2010-05-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

I SERIOUSLY NEED A SHOPPING TRIP.
i finally found clothes that i can fit in -.-

june holidays you better come soon.

most epic thing happened to me today.

i bought eds night tickets like long long ago, then i forgot what date it was on.

my mom told me that we had this family gathering this sat, and i thought the date looked familiar (but i didnt think much).

then ytd we talked abt how eds was coming, then i found out it was this sat.

sold my ticket to someone else,

but the first thing i heard when i came home is, "oh the dinner this sat change to lunch next sunday".

o.o

now im free on sat but i dont have a ticket. AWESOME (Y)

2010-05-01T10:46:00.001+08:00

ahaha so we had speech day ytd (:
my gosh, i still rmb last year's one.
i had to help with the buffet, and i rmb michelle trying to burn one piece of paper using the fire for the buffet.
then the whole door of the locker came out when she was putting her assignment in and how the whole trip to bishan was so funny :D
then we went to bugis with the other year1s and with joylynn.
GAH I MISS LAST YEAR D:

anyway.
so fast speech day over.
last month started training, the times we slacked, did hw together and crapped, time flies so quickly.
then we practiced really hard, coming early on mondays and staying back on thursdays.
now monday and thur will be so empty.
SIGH I MISS THOSE TIMES TOO D:
ahh well. speech day made me like footdrills :)))

i smsed wenlin at 1-2 pm ytd:
hi wenlin HOW ARE YALL HAHA. not dead yet right :)
then she replied at 10 9 plus in the night:
we are dead. R.I.P.

JIAYOU MAN DUTY GUIDES AND NOT FOGETTING THE VERY SEH YEAR3S ;DDD

2010-04-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

last week i didnt go for catechism class cos there was camp the previous day and we couldnt sleep well without even a single fan working, so when i got home i chiong my mountain of homework and slept relatively early to make up for my lack of sleep.
but the next morn i overslept and when i woke up class was alr over.
and i was like o.o OMG.
how on earth was i gonna explain to my tchr.

today i went and she didnt ask why i was absent last week phew.
and now i dont think my case was so bad.
cos 2 other guys in class were still fast asleep in their chalet when class started.
they actl called to tell us that they couldnt make it.

HOW COME THEY HAVE TIME FOR CHALET WHEN IM LIKE DYING FROM ALL THE HOMEWORK??!!

2010-04-21T21:38:00.000+08:00

i love my LA lit circle group :)

the whole time was spent gossiping, laughing, talking abt retarded stuff AHAHAHA.

SABRANDICT ANG AND JAZESA LOO CHING :DDD

2010-04-12T18:23:00.000+08:00

IM BUSY!
eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh
stop telephonin me.

sian i think now no time to blog already.
it's an early tsunami, quote tan xuan.

i love marshmallow cookies (:

2010-04-06T20:29:00.000+08:00

jalyn and i were looking forward to acc cos we thought we can pao cha.
end up nvr, so sian -.-
and that ju zi xiang bao stinks man.

ivp was epic!
we were supposed to mke this egg holder and we were given 10 ice-cream sticks, some toothpicks, a little blue tack and some masking tape.
benjamin came up with a design that looked like a kitchen dresser haha.
but that idea fail lah.
cos we couldnt make the tripod stand -.-
then had to come up with a last minute idea and sabrina and i were like thinking of rafting and ding jiao because it couldnt stand.
had to finish up alr then had to display it.
but when we brought it down the whole holder just died and broke D:
gah so phaillllllllll.
was upset just now, but thinking back actl quite funny lah (:

went to water reclamation plant and we were at the deepest point in singapore o.o
25 storeys deep!!
then tour around newater.
i realise i was very deprived in pri school- today's my first time going newater, when everyone dont know go there how many times alr.

2010-04-03T11:33:00.000+08:00

kaleidoscope was quite fun i suppose.
just that everyone was very ~~sian~~ hot during the time when we had to wait at zhengxinyuan.
a bit suey uh, our class was standing at the spot where the sun shone directly at us.
wl then some ppl threw some plastic from upstairs, then the senior high ppl thought we threw it (we were at 2nd lvl) and scolded us :/

i think the best part of kaleidoscope was the food LOLLLLLL.
and concerts :D
that day i ate alot sia- nachos, a bit of popiah and sushi, tu tu kueh, korean noodles, twisties, turkish ice-cream. i wanted to eat ice-cream waffles and roti prata but then a bit no time and i was kinda full -.-
i thought had eds performance but we didnt get to watch sad man.
I GOT PRANKED ALOT THAT DAY SIA!!
and my parents were like- who tell you so stupid ._. hahaha.

D:
HMPH.

2010-03-28T13:36:00.000+08:00

okayy shall post about sports meet :D
before that went to eighteen chefs to eat lunch.
they had to open earlier for us cos we were gonna be late awww so nice.
but i was too full so i didnt eat my ice-cream ):

then we had to cab to the stadium.
sat in the first row, right in the middle, and jalyn and i thought we had the best seats.
YEAH RIGHT.
first row have sun directly shining at you. and then for some reason, they put this shiny reflective plate right in the middle, so whenever we looked to the front, the sun was reflected right into our eyes. OW.
i saw some of my pri sch friends lor, but they didnt see me ._.
watched the ppl runrunrun.
xielaoshi was very funny throughout HAHAHA.
but then it started to rain.
i got friggin wet even with my umbrella.
then we had to move back to sit at the steps. and whenever sabrina and i stood up, there would be butt prints on the floor cos we were too wet :/
THE EDS DANCE WAS NICE :)
like cheerleaders haha!
walked back to tanah merah mrt stn after the whole thing ended.
overall still quite fun lah :D
took 358 home as usual, then saw alot of ngee ann, temasek, dunman and chung cheng people.
and everyone was like eh eh saw you just now!
talked to dawn on 358 and she was saying our sch very zai, run so fast.
SIGHHHHH.
envious ;DD

the most retarded thing happened to me.
i was scooping some ice-cream ytd, then i scoop alr left the whole cup in the fridge with my spoon so the ice-cream will freeze up more.
took the whole cup out aft like 15 mins, and i was licking off ice-cream from my spoon when i realise my tongue got stuck -.-
yanked out the whole spoon and my tongue HURTS.
went to drink some water and realise that my tongue was bleeding ._.
then i didnt know how to stop it.
nobody at home so i cant possibly ask my dog what to do right?
suddenly rmb that my mum fed me some sugar when i was young so i had to eat 3 teaspoons of sugar before it finally stopped.
for the rest of the day my tongue was numb and gad pins and needles -_______________-

2010-03-27T11:17:00.000+08:00

i just read somewhere that getting into vet school is more difficult than getting into med school, and so basically a 4.0 is required.
OMG.
tell me this does not apply to singapore.
HOW ON EARTH WILL I EVER GET A 4.0?
and i suppose we have to score well in biology, but i know very well this wont happen with ahemahem you know who.

DDDDDD:

2010-03-22T21:38:00.000+08:00

i flunked LA poetry test.
though i dont know why im making such a big deal of it. i kinda expectd this kind of results when i blanked out during the paper.
i realise i keep saying die and fail luh after tests.
i ought to be more positive yea.
yeah.

2010-03-20T14:01:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun :DD
went to wenlin's hse at like 11.30.
i was telling charlene that i will be late and she said she will be late too.
then i realise that i was on time when i reached aljunied mrt station. come out from the train only saw charlene alr.
AND WE WERE EARLY OKAY.
ok lol.
then saw met tse puay.
after that go to some random minimart to get warheads, mustard and mayo.
yup for deborah's torture :DDD
went up to wenlin's house and started preparing.
wasabi, chili sauce, mayo, cheeseballs, oil, ketchup, peanut butter, nutella etc.
she had to guess at least 50% right before we moved on to the next round of celebration.
she guessed everything right except for cheeseballs o.o
i didnt know she was so smart ;D

finally reached ion swensens for the ice-cream buffet.
but we didnt think it was worth it.
20 bucks for you to die of diabetics.
and probably of kidney failure or smt else too cos we got too sick of the sweet stuff and started going crazy by licking salt of the spoon -.-
yes, we were that desperate.
really too sweet and we couldnt take it after awhile.
shared a clam chowder.
MY GOSH SALTY STUFF NEVER TASTED THIS GOOD.

overall still quite fun lah (:

oh no tmr's the last day of holiday and omg what homework am i left with?

2010-03-17T17:01:00.000+08:00

I WASTED 2 DAYS OF MY LIFE ONLY TO FIND OUT THAT :
1)i fail at kayaking straight
2)i get ugly tan lines, bruises, blisters, cuts etc, even though i failed
3) I NOW HAVE A PHOBIA OF WATER.

thanks a lot uh.
i will never swim in the sea.
these 2 days were my first and i think my last.
who's nice enough to help me overcome my fear?
ah well at least i still learn 3 VERY USEFUL things in this 48 hours.
seriously.

yapqi and i are praying hard we dont have to go back next year ._____.

2010-03-15T15:32:00.000+08:00

yesterday have a few scouts came to my hse for their job week thingy.
but then they saw my dog and all of them literally stopped at my neighbour's hse which was opposite mine.
SO SCARY MEH??
anyway.
my mum just gave them donation lah.
should have made them walk my dog or smt :D

i miss those times when i was young and went to the airport to eat at swensens and play at the playground outside the restaurant, then i'll go see the planes take off and run and play in the open space and fight to sit at the front of the skytrain D:
we were so easily satisfied in the past.

2010-03-13T22:00:00.001+08:00

OMG CANT BELIEVE IT'S MARCH HOLS ALR.
DIDNT SCH JUST REOPEN??

anyway.
yesterday music lesson played bad romance with anklung. kinda fail but not bad lah!!

and guides was funfunfun :D
first we had creative gadgets. i thought it was a kitchen dresser at first and when krystal came over to help out, it evoked some memories of orientation prep (:
ok it's a storage rack thingy that reminded most of us as a kitchen dresser.
then we had our long-awaited PT :DD
it was jie pt, and knowing us, it was high, bimbotic and funnehhhh.
43rd batch <333
like seriously man, i think alot of people enjoyed pt yesterday haha.
ONE WORD- FUN!
yeah it was tiring, but FUN!
i believe i made my point (:
the feeling was different loll.

it was the year1s first pt and we asked our junior how was it and she said very fun.
asked her about creative gadgets too and she also replied fun.
zeph and i went o.o
i remember, after our very first pt last year, seniors asked us how it was and we all said tiring.
AND I SAID, DIRTY.
omg can you believe it. what was wrong with me luh -.-
oh gosh so qianjinxiaojie.
like just because my hands and knees were black and my hair was messy.
-___________________-
then last year, i always got scared when we had to tie structures cos i knew my lashed werent tight enough.
and after tying awhile, fingers red only, kinda gave up alr.
but then later in the year, started liking it more and more, and by atc as well as orientation prep, even fingers get blisters, continue to try to tie as tight as possible, enjoying it more and more.
AHAHAHA.
seriously guides changed out attitude (:
im not saying that my attitude now is perfect, veryveryvery good or anyth, but somehow, we look at things differently now. at least for me.
we will continue to improve :D
this post is so long i doubt anyone will read but oh well.

MUST READ THIS PART:YAY FOR YEAR1S :DD

2010-03-11T21:58:00.000+08:00

if we were givem half day to tell the whole world we were released early because of good a-level results, then the idea failed terribly.

COS NO ONE FREAKING CARES.

sabrina and zephania walked around in vivo in class tee with DUNMAN HIGH in huge fonts on the back, while deb and i were in sch u.
at 11 plus in vivo.
and nobody will go ask "eh why yall no sch uh".
but we were retarted and were saying that if someone ever asked us that, we'll all look at one another nervously then ZAO!!

last year when we had a full day holiday went for patrol outing in home clothes and people asked us. this year go out halfday in sch u but no one care. EPIC.

watched dear john(:
okok quite nice lah.
then zeph and deborah cried like mad.
while sabrina and i rolled our eyes.
LOL I CANT CRY DURING MOVIES.
apparently deb can. she cried when watching UP.
though i must admit tht the first part quite sad ._.

after movie shop around a bit then go home :DDD
music tmr, gonna play anklung! yay (:

2010-03-08T17:56:00.000+08:00

we got our yearbook (at last) today.
oh well dont have my unglam. the ones with benjamin disturbing me -.-

seriously history is killing me.
i spent hours ytd searching for reasons for dutch to colonise africa and the impacts of their colonialism.
reasons got a bit.
IMPACTS DONT EVEN HAVE.
all talk about southeast asia blahblah.
i could have spent the time doing other things instead of wasting my time looking at irrelevant websites.
my gosh.

~~I WANT THE A LEVEL RESULTS HOLIDAY~~

2010-03-05T16:42:00.000+08:00

3 most common things girls do when they the sch announces 'spot check' :
1) pin up hair!
2) unfold/pull down skirt
3) scream when you find out your nails are long.

the list is not exhaustive ;D

boohoo why nvr return history and geog papers today ._.

2010-03-01T17:38:00.000+08:00

IM SO GONNA SCREW UP INDICES AND FACTORISATION IN THE MATH TEST URGHHHHHHHHHHH.
I SCREWED UP HISTORY AND GEOG ALREADY.
GEE WHAT'S NEW.

mr lee told 2L that he's gonna mark the geog scripts again to reduce the number of failures.
even 2L got failure.
my gosh i lose hope already lahhhhhhhhhhhhhh._.

2010-02-27T10:58:00.000+08:00

HAHA YESTERDAY WAS A BLAST!
on the way up to class aft music lesson, then everyone was rushing up to chinese class (took the lift duh)
and this whole grp of year1s were trying to get in too.
only 2 girls got in and the rest didnt, and everyone expected them to spam the lift.
stopped at 2nd lvl, and ALL OF US STARTED SCOLDING AT THE EXACT SAME TIME.
SUPER IRRITATED LAHHHHH.
but aft scolding then quite shiok, cos all of us tolerate for a long time alr ._.
and you'll notice that aft 4th lvl, the lift can go up smoothly.

then we had guides! :DDDDD
alot of us wanted PT, cos vry long nvr run alr :/
taught yr1s lashes first and then had a sort of PT.
for a short period of time.
and we had dinner aft that.
so sad the steamboat cancelled and we had buffet instead.
i think it was quite nice lah, but i wasnt hungry.
all of us were like, i dont need food, i just need the drink ;D
and the seniors came back!! :D
WHY THEY ALL SO PRETTY.
overall it was fun and we could see the yr5s again (:
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY to joylynn again.

:D

2010-02-21T18:26:00.000+08:00

my bro's friend migrated to new zealand right, and they dont have canteen or a DUSTBIN in the school.
like omg dustbin also dont have.
and when he told me they didnt have canteen i thought maybe have cafeteria.
but no, they bring their own food EVERY SINGLE DAY.
my gosh i will not be able to live without the canteen.
1.vegetarian stall- ok i can live without this. i only ate there once lol.

2.thai food- still ok..but their food's nice and without this stall i probably will nvr eat thai food cos who knows how to prepare?

3.snacks shop- OKAY I CAN NVR LIVE WITHOUT THIS STALL.
this shop saves our lives. how can i ever survive without sweets? and the nice huge cookie.

4. chinese mixed rice- ok lah their fried rice quite nice :D

5. japanese food- also another live saver, though if i need it to save my life i actl died alr cos the queue so long. sushi rocks yoh.

6. noodles soup- also can survive without it.

7. chicken rice- cant survive without it. i love the chili. and the curry chicken rice (:

8.fried noodles- it saved me when i dabao-ed it for the ivp launch thingy. yup and their noodles vry nice too.

9. so sad korean food closed down.

10.western food- niceeeee. i love cheese fries. and their cheesy bites feels my stomach when i dont feel thaaaaaaaaaaaaaat hungry.

11. yong tau foo- I LOVE THE WANTON :D and the soup's good too

12.dessert store- MANGO QQ <3 it saves us after pe too hahaha.

13. chinese mixed rice- eh i nvr eat from here before :/

14. drinks stall- saves my life when im dying of thirst and the other drinks stall queue too long.

15. malay food- the only malay food in sch so yeah, i cant survive without malay food too.

16. drinks stall- super nice uncles and they have cool drinks ;DD

there, i wont ever wanna migrate. i love food too much HAHAHA ;)

2010-02-16T19:23:00.001+08:00

HAHA THIS BLOG IS DYING -.-
anyw.
had a blasting weekend in malaysia! :DDD
photos shld be uploaded by my cousin on fb soon. alot of unglams i think ._.
played loads of sparklers then halfway through someone threw a sparkler onto the plant by accident and the plant caught fire :/
3 cousins(fine 1 of them was my bro) went in, first one came with a bottle of water, the other 2 came with a cup of water (Y)
smart lah smart. they got suan-ned to no end.
oh in the middle of the night some neighbour put up fireworks, the ones as big as national day, and i SLEPT RIGHT THROUGH IT.
seriously couldnt hear it lehhhhhhhhh.
omg my hearinggggggggggggggggg.
i have really funny and sarcastic relatives hahaha (:

2010-02-08T19:10:00.000+08:00

today in science miss tan let us watch a bit of magic school bus ;DDD
and alot of ppl including me lah, went OMG I USED TO WATCH THIS SHOW ALL THE TIME!, I LOVE THIS SHOW! and OH I LOVE THE SONG!
and no i wasnt tt deprived i did watch that show in the past hahaha.
gosh i miss those times.
SHEESH

i think kindergarden was the best time in my life.
no homework, just learn spelling and tingxie and did not have to do freakin hard math sums.
and always go school for like 2 or 4 hrs/
and playplayplay and go home watch tv.
oh did not have to wait forever and have difficulty squeezing on some stupid bus cos i just had to walk for like 3 mins.
OMG I WANNA GO BACK TO THE TIME I WAS 5 AND 6.

2010-02-07T16:39:00.000+08:00

oh gosh i have so many things undone and so many things to study for.
what on earth is a problem statement like.
im gonna fail my bio pop quiz this week.
i dont know if the LA hw, which i took the whole day to do, is done correctly.
i know i did not do well for my history graded assignment.

OKAY, SHALL ATTEMPT MUGGING NOW BYEZ.

2010-02-03T21:29:00.001+08:00

WE DIDNT GET PUMPINGS FOR LECTURE BOOK :D

hahahahahaha.
thank you for being kind, claire (:
and must thank everyone who stayed back almost everyday
our efforts paid off :D

love>

2 MORE DAYS 2 MORE DAYS HAHAHA.

2010-02-02T17:16:00.000+08:00

OMG JUNIORS COMING IN 3 DAYS TIME.
last year, we were still saying that thr's half a year more, then 3 mths, and now 3 DAYS.
kinda nervous, but still pretty excited :DDDDD

my blog is getting dead ._.

2010-01-29T21:16:00.000+08:00

today was fun (:
had to pack souvenirs for the visitors coming on 1st and 2nd feb.
i was packing with yapqi, grace, siyun, wenlin and amanda.
had a great time chatting with them lol!!
all kinds of random stuff haha.
wulaoshi was saying that we had alot of things to pack (cos have 1200 visitors) and that we would probably pack until 7-8 plus.
but we finished at 5 whoo~
oh, and this non-teaching stuff told us to go to PAC to help out, then as usual, we ran off, and she was like, "why yall all run off? i havent tell yall what to do yet!"
and she told us to walk.
andand told us to take lift to the PAC.
but obviously we didnt.
ran up the stairs.
it's so weird to walk during guides ;DDD

aft the whole thing ended, us year2s decided to do kallang wave pumping, as a jie.
did 400 (:
and we taught this new girl how to do pumping too :)
but i dont know how to spell her name.
nvm, shall find out soon! :D
she's from 2c.
ANYWAY.
aft pumping, ding-ed boys style for like 4 mins, and whoever kus have to do maboleh (:
and then played some other stupid game, like talking in a bimbotic manner without laughing.
then played ice and water.
whoever got caught had to ding girls style lol.
pictures and maybe videos gonna be uploaded on facebook!

TODAY'S SUPER FUN :DDD

2010-01-28T18:13:00.000+08:00

the area outside the library still holds alot of memories.
esp when we sit near the carpark thr cos thr's no place and sometimes, we just dont feel like reating INSIDE the library cafe with her.
then when we sit at that carpark area i always recall the time when we set fire on the floor ;D
but of course you cant tell now. no burnt marks :D

tmr's friday wheeee.
why so freakin fast o.o
and i've been coming back home at 6-7 plus alomost everyday since sch started.
which results in me sleeping at like 10 plus cos im too sleepy.
therefore, projects suck.

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~~reating~~ .
sorry, type wrong, i meant eating.

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2010-01-24T11:04:00.001+08:00

saw my pri 6 class photo on facebook.
taken on teacher's day i think.
XIANG DANG NIAN.
(quotes junwei)

and then my hotmail was spammed with emails from facebook.
the last time this kind of thing happened, my whole comp hanged, waited forever, but i was still stuck at that friggin page.
tried deleting the emails, but hey, they didnt like me and didnt want to get deleted and stayed at that page -.-

everytime i hear 'love story', i get this nostalgic feeling of our orientation in year1 ._.
i wanna go back to year1 -.-
and i think next year in year 3 i will probably say that i wanna go back to year 2. and 1.
sighhhh.
i think i'll miss helio alottttttttttttttt next year.
all the funny ppl and stupid jokes ;DDDD

2010-01-19T20:42:00.000+08:00

I GOT INTO IVP :DDDDDD
yippeeee hahahaha.
wont be too easy but oh well.
ok, easy compared to IVP-ge.
lol.

im so freakin screwed ._.
3rd week in year2 only and im like tt alr.

2010-01-17T12:15:00.001+08:00

friday's guides was kinda different ;D
first we had roll call. our vry first one.
and throughout the day, i was panicking and worrying cos i didnt know what and whr to march etc.
and then mass change, gah why cant i be faster ._.
and the seniors talked to us, which really made us reflect and think abt how we were behaving as a jie, as juniors.
few more weeks juniors coming in, will we be able to teach them the right things?
wish us luck (:
but we'll try really hard.
yippee we got our thrift badge, total defence badge and speaker's badge.
and i think we'll get out crime proficiency badge too. MUAHAHAHA :D
and then had patrol corner.
lol the year3s can really think of cool games man.
SUPER FUNNY HAHAHAHA.
was laughing like mad!!
tmr gonna have patrol breakfast whee~
charlene and i were sms-ing abt tmr's breakfast, and she was saying we may choke from laughing too much (:
oh well.
IM LOOKING FORWARD :DDD

yesterday went back to sch for our chi proj (:
met jalyn in the canteen, and saw ventures seating all around, like stoning.
no idea what they were doing o.o
and suddenly all left tgt.
ok anyw.
michelle's supposed to be filming in china, cos she's the reporter for international news.
so she's gonna wear some thick winter like clothes and stand in zhengxinyuan next to kongzi.
yippee, we're in china.
oh and we're gonna add snow in the beackground ;D
wahaha.
went to kfc for lunch, then kiahieng and i had a nice convo abt our ccas(:
i wanna go EDS night this year lol.
anyone wanna join me?
went to united square to meet my family aft that.
the last time i went thr i was only 8.
but nothing much has changed.i think.

YAY FOR TMR.

2010-01-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

today's PE lesson was funny man.
normally we stand in grps of 7 for pe.
like since last year.
then just now we played a game:
eg. mr kwok wants us to stand in groups of 6, then must quickly move lah.
but if let's say we have 7 groups instead, then he would pick out any random grp.
if the grp has 6 ppl, then the whole class must do 6 pumpings etc.
and he kept saying tht UG ppl shld know all this vry well.
HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
scouts kept going "knock it down knock it down"
and we went"dui shou"
then we were like. EHHH.
and throughout i kept wanting to pump in 45 degrees angle, instead of STRAIGHT.
we had alot of space mah (:
HAHAHAHA.
then had to run track.
just when we started running, the wind was super strong, like pushing us back -_-
wl 2 rounds in around 4 mins and i was dying alr.
better train my stamina._.

VOLLEYBALL :DDD

2010-01-12T19:45:00.000+08:00

i screwed up my math test today ._.
i studied for it, since like last week, only to lose like at least 7 marks due to carelessness.
and the test is only upon 20 marks.
AND IT'S LIKE SUPER EASY??
dont know what was wrong with my eyes and brain.
study so hard for what? be careless, ZOOOOOOOM, your marks fly away.
hopefully still can get method marks though.
maybe i shld go to some doctor to get medication for my eyes and screwed up brain.

wtv.

AHH I WANNA GET INTO IvP SO BADLY :D

2010-01-11T21:18:00.000+08:00

i think im driving ppl nuts with my want beanbags heh ;D
anyw, saw online tt thr's this beanbag store in east point, so i went thr specially just to see if i can find any nice ones.
and then, turns out tht the freakin store was gone.
it became some hearing centre thingy.
gosh i felt soooooooooooooo SMART.
waste my time, when i could have reached home earlier and could have been studying for my math test or what so ever.
BUT NAH, I'VE GIVEN UP STUDYING IT FOR IT ALR.
i dont know what's my problem.

2010-01-10T17:16:00.000+08:00

tmr my brother's going for p6 camp. his first time going to a camp lol.
it's always me who's the one going, evr since i was p3.
WAHAHAHA NOW IT'S MY TURN TO LEAD THE LIFE OF AN ONLY CHILD.
well, for 3 days ._.

i think im gonna do really badly for tt chi assignment.
hai i cant write books sia.

why are beanbags so expensive -.-

2010-01-09T12:15:00.000+08:00

i will bang my head if i get her as my junior.
or maybe i shld give her a chance

i realised i cant eat chicken rice without chilli D:

2010-01-06T20:33:00.001+08:00

today finally came home at 5 plus aft coming back at 8-9 plus for 2 days (:
first day of sch was..
early in the morn, at the bus stop, i was wet and the wind blew until my hair was messy -.-
sch hasnt even started!!
reached sch and saw all the year1s ;D
they have super long skirts, but i expect they will fold or alter them soon. it's friggin long omg.
then we had the workshop. i thought it would be boring but it turned out to be funny and interesting. the coaches were super cute haha :DD
then we had the dhs xplore briefing at auditorium and it felt like we just had that period whr we went through our eoys paper 0.0
guides aft that.
i was removing masheng from the mu, and someone told me to hurry up.
my hand brushed against the mu and the splinter went into my nail HAHA.
it was bleeding like mad and hurt ._.
EH PAIN LEH!!
managed to pull it out with tweezers but thr's still a tiny one stuck in my nail NOW.
cos too deep lol.
first day of sch like that alr. hai.

2nd day was the dhs xplore 10'!
all the grp 3 ppl was like WAHLAO!!! when grp 1 grp 2 ppl got excited when they deciphered their clue, which was like this voice that may be really fast or just super slow -.-
finally got the clue- lecture theatre 3 and 4 and throw paper planes. LOL.
that station was tiring alr loh ._.
run up run down run up run down.
took a bus to suntec aft that and then walked to marina square, then to singapore flyer, esplanade, memorial wall and finally another bus back to kallang leisure park. we were only allowed to take 2 bus trips in total D:
kept cheering wrongly cos we were too used to the guides cheers haha. oops.
tiring day, but still super fun :DD
more orientation prep (:

TODAY.
finally he day of the cca exhibition.
i didnt see any parkview ppl omg.
or rather, i couldnt recognise ._.
i smelled like charcoal again haha.
vry smoky sia (:
but i like outdoor cooking more now.
we made bread!!
and i guess our efforts paid off aft days and days of prep :D
when the NPCC were performing, i had this 'OMG WERENT WE JUST THE ONES ATTENDING THE EXHIBITION??' feeling again.
oh and i found my orientation booklet from last year. the cca exhibition day reflection:

hmm...i wish i can join string ensemblenand girl guides! they look fun and enjoyable :D
it has been a rather interesting day today! yays..

i wonder what my life would be like right now if i didnt skip the string ensem auditions or went for the softball trial instead o.o

2010-01-03T21:16:00.000+08:00

OMG I CANT BELIEVE SCH STARTS TMR AHHHHH.
i still can rmb last year's first day of sch lol.
because i took sch bus, i reached sch at like 7.15, when sch started at 8.
reached sch, super blur, then see all the seniors shrieking when they saw their friends ;DDD
and i had no idea whr to go._.
stoned at zhengxinyuan a bit, then attempted going up to the hall, only to get chased down -.-
anywayyyy.
SCs came and we were saved. ah, thank god for them(:
and i rmb getting really confused when we had to do that clapping thing at the end of flag raising. LOLLLL.
oh and after the national anthem the person on the stage said "xing yue".
and again, super blur, thinking that was the name of the sch song or smt =.=
i think alot of ppl didnt know that was the pledge in chinese too.
sorry my pri sch didnt have chinese pledge :/

hai. 1 year.
this year senior alr.
YEAR 2, HERE I COME.

2010-01-02T18:09:00.000+08:00

i am posting in malaysia (:
im at my cuz's hse now haha.
but they're all boys, well except for 1.
and i have no idea whr she is now o.o
sorry lah this hse a bit big.
anyw, evrytime we come to this hse we have this little prob.
you know like condo, they have security guards outside?
theirs also, just tt instead of condo blocks, they're all terraces.
and, like all condos, you'll have to provide the guard with the owner's name and the address.
but, we can nvr rmb the friggin address -.-
and what do we say to the guards?
"the hse with the high high wall."
yeah, pathetic.
buffet shld be starting soon, 100 over ppl invited o.o
my grandparents' married for 50 years whoo~
kk, toodles^^

i survived without sms-ing today.
except for that sms in the morning. when i was still singapore.
;DDDD